Some Thoughts

Things in Alaska are...interesting and that can be a good or bad thing. The past couple of weeks have been a little hard on the new teachers here, trying to deal with all the stress that comes with being a first year teacher, all of the things you deal with while living in the Alaskan bush, and the culture shock have really hit us hard lately. I don't want this blog to be a "burn book" (yes unfortunately that is a "Mean Girls" reference...sorry) letting people know how "bad" things are up here and I know if I continue on with this post it has a strong possibility to become that just because of how I am feeling right now. The new teachers and especially me came  up here to save the world and inspire all of these kids to be better and be what we know they can be and it has hit me this past week that I can't do that, I can't care more than they can because all that does is wear and stress me out. I knew on some level that this would happen and that has saved me from being an even bigger wreck than I am now. Please pray for us and especially me that we get through this tough time. We love these kids and even the ones that drive you crazy most days at the end of the day still make you smile when you think of them, so it hasn't been all bad, we are just in the stage of culture shock where we are getting frustrated that we can't save them according to our standards. Honestly my time up here has been nothing short of amazing and even in the not-so-good times I still learn something new everyday and everyday I am blessed to be allowed to live in this awesome place (honestly where else can you walk around and find a fully intact moose head on the porch?). So aside from the internet being up and down for the past couple of weeks, I have just not been feeling my best lately and I don't want that to become what this blog is about. I know everyone has been anxiously awaiting (:)) for me to post something new but I have been following the  rule Thumper's mom gave him in the movie Bambi-If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all :). Don't worry I feel like I am on the downward slope on this whole pity party roller coaster so my next post will definitely be more upbeat! Thanks for letting me down load on you awesome readers and I can't promise this will be the last time I feel this way but I can promise it is the last time I will make you read about it! So enough complaining from me I am going to go find something happy to write about! Love y'all!


P.S.-On a more upbeat side note, it is Sept. 10 and this morning when I woke up it was 35 degrees and there was frost on the ground! Gotta love Alaska!